okay so, i need to vent.

a few weeks ago i was kicked out of my home for telling my family (aunts , uncles ) that my mom did drugs. i was kicked out with no place to go but thankfully my big sister was there to help me and i quickly moved into her house, my stuff was thrown out onto the street and i had to get all of it and move it in. there was alot of hurtful texts and calls made my way. things that a mother should never say to her daughter were said. when really all i wanted to do is help her  everybody knew she was using drugs due to her only weighiing 80 pounds never sleeping and her actions.i knew this was coming due to my anger problem ive had mostly all my life. every fight wtih my mom would either end in me breaking things screaming and blacking out. or my mom physically “teaching me a lesson”. ive tried medication ive tried counseling but nothing ever happens. my counselor says its cause all the things ive been put through as a child which no one will ever imagine . right now my heart aches. all i want to do is be at home with  my mom and my 2 little sisters who are literlay my world. thankfully i was reunited with one of my ltitle sisters today. which shed me to pieces. i hate this sad life im living. i feel alone and depprsed. and i hate myself every single day for what i did for how i ruined myself and how i ruined me and my moms realtionship. i can smile all i want but just know its not real. not till i get to go home. and i get to see my little sisters beautfuil amazing faces everyday. i fucked up. and no matter whos right or whos wrong. i will do anything to fix my famiy. i hate not having a family i hate not having a home. i hate that i have no idea where im even gonna live soon. im gonna have to leave here and find a job. and grow up way faster than i really want to lifes hard right now. but even though i love my mom to pieces i willneverforgive her for giving up on me. and disowning me.ill never forget the words my little sister said to me today “mommy said that sissys not part of our family anymore and she doesnt like you” awesome.

so next time you think your lifes rough. and you cant handle it anymore. go give your family a hug. because right now there snothing else in this world id rather be doing

i miss you mommy

i miss you cheyanne and marisa

i miss you good life.

tumblr is tumblr for a reason

its so you canspillyour feelings

and not bejudged

and everything stays confidental

hate when people bring tumblr shit up like at school and infront of people

no keep it to yourself.

 its on tumblr for a reason.

today is the worst day,

today i got kicked out of my home, because i found the drugs my mom were taking and i knew she was taking them since she weighs 90 pounds now,

i confronted her and ehr bitch ass friend is th eone who is telling her to do these drugs

so we got in a fight and seh kicked me out all my shit was on the front porch and was ready to be picked up.

im not allowed to say bye to my sisters or see them ever.

fuck my life,

i feel so weird

im gonna miss my mommy and sissys so much

its real this time and i feel like i have nothing left.

mmm wild boy ;)

MGK

fuck me right now.

why are u so damn sexy?

baby make that as clap

ah,